Apology

I’m sorry for what I’ve done
I missed my cue and I ruined the show
I stumbled and couldn’t recover,
Didn’t do justice to your brilliant serve
I’d like a chance for redemption
Crawling down on my knees
The least you can do is open your ears
And listen to my pleas

The last thing I want is for you to hate me,
Although it seems to be what I deserve
I miss the way you used to smile at me,
I wish I could’ve thought of something better,
But I was at my emotional capacity
Trying to redeem myself in this letter

Was the conflict only in my head?
An illusion of my self doubt?
Have I already lost so much sanity
That I'm blurring the lines between joy and sorrow?
But your translucent eyes look dimmer now
So I will light them with a song
Someday it will waft through your window
Maybe you will even sing along

The last thing I want is for you to hate me
Although it seems to be what I deserve
I miss the way you used to smile at me
I wish I could’ve thought of something better
But I was at my emotional capacity
Trying to redeem myself in this letter

I know this may seem cheap
You may just brush it away
This is the best that I can do
The best way for me to say
I’m sorry

My success is yet to be seen
Was this song worth the lost sleep?
It’s doesn’t seem very original
It may not even be that good
But that isn’t what’s most important
As long as the message is understood
Sorry that this is all I can do
I would’ve have done better if I could

The last thing I want is for you to hate me
Although it seems to be what I deserve
I miss the way you used to smile at me
I wish I could’ve thought of something better
But I was at my emotional capacity
Trying to redeem myself in this letter